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A Rainy Encounter
July 16, 2024 This rainy day again is transporting me to a different world by casting a mystical spell in the air; transforming green trees into dark, cloudy shades, and turning black asphalt roads into a rhythmic dance floor beaten by heavy drums of raindrops. The sound of wind whispers through the leaves and creates a romantic and healing ambiance. I wish you were here to experience it with me. As I am enjoying this weather, I wish you didn’t have an umbrella while walking to your car, and I appear with one to offer you shelter. You hesitate to accept it, as if trying to flee, like always, and…
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The Weight of Indecisiveness
What do you feel when you’re being indecisive? I know what I feel when I try to weigh the pros and cons of something and can’t make a decision. I feel drained. Being an independent person I’ve made all my decisions without anyone’s help. Still, many. times I get caught up in the cycle of indecision, and it’s not always related to big things. It can be anything from big to small, from relocating to a new place, changing jobs, to choosing between two outfits for a Monday or two dishes for dinner. It can be anything. As a fire sign, I behave like a Libra sometimes, weighing all the…
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Things You Could Do in my Healing Process
A beautiful home we built together ,never thought would be crying alone in it, All the memories and screams would be bearing alone in it, wishing you would stop me pulling my hair, and console me in such a mess, believe me, I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess When I fold your small sized clothes, keep your letters close, Talking to your pics alone and imagining your presence with rose, Seeing you coming home, and console me in such a mess, believe me, I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess. Have been living far from…
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NO STRINGS ATTACHED
No strings attached was the first string we made Was it love ? was it friendship? could never differentiate, Definitely, strict rules were set not to get hurt, Then, how this casual relationship got so worst? I have lost touch of all the brighter shades, Dark memory of laughs and grumpy face never fades It was just a minute ago, we were into this so deep Journey from letters to emails, doesn’t help me sleep I remember, we made home in each others’ heart, So, how come in a same street we are living apart? You know I always wished you never stay behind! Just wondering if I get lost, …
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EMOTIONAL HONESTY
How soon you drop the matters? This is a general question lingering in my mind after an argument with a connection. I realized, when I have any disagreement with my loved ones or outsiders, I don’t feel nice about it. I feel consumed by sadness and unhappiness. It feels gross either being rude or have someone yelling at you, doesn’t matter what’s the reason but the sting of harsh words or bitter silence feels unbearable, regardless of who is at fault. I have seen people swiftly move on after apologies are exchanged but for me, it’s different. I can‘t simply drop the issue, especially if it’s deeply personal or hurtful.…