Category: POETRY

How could you choose someone you never liked?

Can’t believe my intuition was actually

that blind

Did you run out of choices to make?

Or was it a political move

of some kind 

I always saw you like a princess 

Surviving this cruel mankind 

If this is the actual life you ever dreamed of

Why something doesn’t seem

so aligned?

I guess you were right about me having a different image of you, In my mind

That you are SUCH a delicate butterfly, 

Getting treated like a pawn of

some kind

Thinking if you’re sold for being a bad decision-maker

Or you’re the actual buyer that never crossed my mind

It seems a shock more than a heartbreak Thought I know you better but now? I can’t define

Wait, Am I questioning your unpredictability or my uncertainty 

God, I need a drink for leaving my self behind

If we were never supposed to meet

Why I got a dream of you getting a wedding date assigned?

Maybe it was a message for me to stop chasing you

And find the destination, I’m being inclined..

But, I wish you best of luck for the direction you going to

seems like Finally I gotta find mine..

By Ray. K

Why don’t you say it? 

If something is ripping you apart 

Why don’t you say it?

If it’s deepening your scars 

Why don’t you say it?

If silence has been damaging so far?

Why don’t you say it?

If you desire a fresh start ?

Why don’t you say it?

If things ended in a bizarre

Why don’t you say it? 

How sorry you are ? 

Why don’t you say it?

If you still crave my heart 

Why don’t you just say something,

something to end this ongoing war?

Just say a word….

Ray. K

Even one second of eye contact with you 

Fills me with rout

The calmness on your face makes me wonder,

What your loudest mind is thinking about?

Do you still feel uncomfortable around me or 

Consider having a word, before heading out?

All these questions about our encounters 

Just leave me thirsty in this hopeless drought

You must have forgotten the laughs we shared 

But am I good at goodbyes? Having a self-doubt

The day you left in a questionable manner 

Made me think, was I happy with you or without?

The curiosity to solve this puzzle is so draining

That I’m killing myself everyday, having a burnout 

And your rent-free stay in my heart wants to know 

Will I ever be able to kick you out?

No, I don’t think without loosing myself

I will be able to kick you out,

I don’t think without getting myself broken 

I will be able to kick you out…

penned by Ray.K on 27 nov, 2024

Do you Remember when I called you my wife 

 proposing with a paper ring

during a prom night?

You laughed so hard and blew my mind ,

But promised to stay along 

and hang tight?

That lovely shade of white we booked in a bridal shop

Thinking the day we exchange our vows

will be bright?

Each ceremony we practiced together and 

you chose someone else 

hiding it from my sight ?.

Not gonna lie, The diamonds on your gown filled my eyes with tears 

The second I got your married pictures

drinking my beer

Just wondering how years of love just faded away with a goodbye

I still remember that knot I was about to tie

I still remember that knot

We were about to tie.

Remember those fights for a special dress, you never bought me for my birth day?

Every year, how I used to declare which colour theme, I wanted so badly on this day?

The way I wanted someone to surprise me, I used to do that for others in a special way

remember the small gifts and cards made for you, on your happy returns of the day?

how beautifully the house was decorated for party at night and gathering during the day?

 I used to expect those lavish moments but only in private, without my say

You tried your best not being perfect and I was always complaining in some way

questioning you for not knowing me enough, that preparing lunch surprises so far away?

But how special those days, and moments were, I never thought before this way,

late night comings from malls, matching masks, and laughs, all just feels like a play 

From all of your gifts and surprise, I loved the First flowers you gave me on a working day

The notes on doors, parasailing shore, cycling to friend’s home & stores, just feels like yesterday

Thought I was driving home filled with surprises, expecting you there happily hiding a Bouquet,

Just wondering if you are missing me like I am missing you, today? 

From fighting for presents to fighting for presence of yours to stay

These undecorated walls reminding me the trips, we shared before our separation day

I wish I could go back and freeze those moments, which got slipped away

And fight for a dress again in old way but what can I say, Ray, happy birthday!

What will you do if I am missing a part of me,

Even though I am giving you my all?

You make me feel safe and secure,

But I play a different role when alone?

I must be the luckiest person to have you 

Yet, I cry during midnights, after being so strong?

In all of our favourite seasons of love,

Would you hate me if go blank, singing our Christmas song?

Truly, I will love you the most and won’t stay apart ,

But will you let me throw some loonies in the river, before August starts?

From smaller to bigger things, you will never be disappointed at all 

But can you ever accept me with all of my hidden scars?

can you accept me with all of my hidden scars?

Ray.K

A beautiful home we built together ,never thought would be crying alone in it, 

All the memories and screams would be bearing alone in it,

wishing you would stop me pulling my hair, and console me in such a mess, believe me,

I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess

When I fold your small sized clothes, keep your letters close, 

Talking to your pics alone and imagining your presence with rose, 

Seeing you coming home, and console me in such a mess, believe me,

I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess.

Have been living far from your sight to love you more,

Many times, silently, I stood in front of your door, 

Hoping you would open it, hug me, feed me and console me in such a mess, believe me,

I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess

For once, I needed not any one between us,

For once, I hoped you chose us and us, I swear.

I could have been sweeter to you, for once I hoped you only cared for me not the rest, and console me in such a mess, believe me,

 I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess

When we encountered together on a four way road, In your lovers car, seeing you happy got shaken more, 

I thought you would feel my pain, apologize for a new cut with sympathetic text and console me in such a mess, believe me

I expected these things you would do to heal me, in such a mess

Yes, there were many things you could do to heal me, in such a mess!

Penned by Ray.K

No strings attached 

was the first string we made

Was it love ? was it friendship? 

could never differentiate,

Definitely, strict rules were set

 not to get hurt,

Then, how this casual relationship

 got so worst?

I have lost touch of 

all the brighter shades,

Dark memory of laughs and 

grumpy face never fades

It was just a minute ago, 

we were into this so deep

Journey from letters to emails, 

doesn’t help me sleep

I remember, we made home 

in each others’ heart,

So, how come in a same street 

we are living apart?

You know I always wished

 you never stay behind!

Just wondering if I get lost, 

will you ever come and find?

Penned by Ray.K